Monday, May 9, 2011

“I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.” - Robert McCloskey

The quality is a bit shocking, but unfortunately one of the only pictures we snapped!

I was going to update my blog last night, but I didn't get back from The Mount until relatively late and a long hot soak in the tub was more of a priority at the time! I seriously feel like I am about 80. Not a single part of my body isn't sore, but it is a good pain. A happy pain. I realise I'm starting to sound a little masochistic right now, but I don't care!
I ended up having the best day yesterday, despite the rocky start. The girls were extremely helpful, welcoming and patient (especially about my inherent lack of fitness!). Only one of us was broken (fractured humerus), and thankfully it wasn't me... that would not have been a good time! It was refreshing to have another, much more developed league, take us under their proverbial wing and offer such amazing support. I am feeling very positive about our progression now, and can't wait to try some of the new blocking, jumping and general skating techniques at our next training (when hopefully I am feeling a bit more limber).

More importantly though, I have my darling ray of sunshine back with me again! It was a long 3nights without my wee cuddles, and (although I am sure I will get used to it) it was very hard! Even harder was the fact that I came home to a Mother's Day card from "him" and wee present. I know, it's supposed to be a good thing, but it is proving very hard to move on when his father is still making these gestures. He means well, but I feel that as soon as I start to make progress, he somehow senses it and throws something like this in the works! I also realise I am being paranoid. I know in my heart he has moved on, and really want to accept it... but it's still hard to think with my head (instead of heart) sometimes! It irritates me that I still let these things affect me as they do, but I suppose it's only natural!

Anyway, my darling is home and tucked back in his bed for his morning nap. I am off to tackle the mountain of laundry, which I am sure has somehow bred during my absence!

Over & Out.


5 comments:

Renee said...

Breeding laundry! The story of my life! I feel like I am forever stuck amidst a never ending cycle.

So happy you had such a good day, even if you are bearing bruises and an aching body because of it! I cannot believe how awesome you are getting into something like that - I'm so proud! You should be so proud of yourself at how far you have bought your group of girlies already! Awesome pic - you'll have to get someone with a good camera to come along sometime and snap some goodies!

Bet little J is happy to see his Mumma B xoxo

skymum @Pursuit of Happiness said...

Are you offering to come and take photos, RR? You could shoot our fundraising calendar for next year! Just give me a few more months to shed some of the "happy fat" that I had no motivation to lose whilst in a relationship! ;)

Renee said...

Just dropping in to let you know about your Kreative Blogger Award over at http://butterflykissesfairywishes.blogspot.com/2011/05/who-loves-ya-baby.html!

Fit Fran Figures out Family said...

My sister went through exactly the same thing, she had an ex that just kept meeting for coffee with her, texting her weird things etc just to 'pull the fishing line back in abit' it took her awhile but she realised that she was better off without him, you will get there :) i know it! xxx

skymum @Pursuit of Happiness said...

Thanks Renee! I've done my bit with the nomination, but the post got away on me a bit in the end!

Fran - I don't think it's intentional at all, I think it's just hard (for both of us) to flick a switch and go back to "just friends" as it was a long time & there's a lot of history between us! All is good - once we're in the new house it will be a lot easier to establish proper boundaries :) xxx