Mother's Day

Today bears mixed emotions for me. I am struggling with shared custody. On one hand I love having "time out", on the other I spend the majority of this "time out" missing my darling wee man like crazy. Today is Mother's Day in New Zealand, and I don't even get to cuddle him & tell him how much I love him.

Change is in the air...

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” 

- Maria Robinson

Due to my recent change in circumstance, I figure it's time to give this blog a shake-up. This will still follow me on my quest for happiness (hey, I'm getting there!) but it will also become somewhat of a 'how-to guide' for Solo Mums. I'm not promising everything in here will be upbeat and joyous, as we all have bad days, but I will strive to turn everything into a positive (as I am currently attempting in my life also).

"Justice that love gives is a surrender, justice that law gives is a punishment." - Gandhi

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that." Martin Luther King, Jr.

My whole facebook world has been bombarded with celebration of Osama Bin Laden's death. While I do find all the Osama/Obama mix-ups amusing, I do find myself wondering about the state of the world today. We are living in a world where it is justifiable to kill thousands of human beings, and label it "justice" and "retribution".

Full of broken thoughts, I cannot repair. Beneath the stains of time, The feelings disappear.

"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real"

If I had listened to this only a week ago, it would have rendered me a mess. I have always found it deeply moving, but for some strange reason this cover of NIN's "hurt" is my inspiration for the day. No matter the relationship between his father and I, I will not let it affect my son. He will always grow up knowing that both his mummy & daddy love him to pieces. 

“Friends are angels who lift our feet when our own wings have trouble remembering how to fly.”

As I'm relatively 'new' to this blogging world, I'm not too familiar with things such as "linking", but I am going to give it a shot! I am linking up to Maxabella loves with (hopefully) a slightly more positive blog than my life-update yesterday!